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What the Gruesome Images from the Jerusalem Terror Attack Taught Me About Hope

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The images are gruesome. Heartwrenching. So much blood. I don’t want to see. And for a while I don’t. Not really. I scroll quickly from one post to the next. Four killed in terror attack. Har Nof. Rabbis. Synagogue. Even as my heart is rushing and the tears are falling, my fingers slow down. To read. And to see. To really see.

A blood-soaked
tallit
(prayer shawl) crouches in crumpled horror. The red-splattered bookshelves stand feebly by. They are a quiet, ueseless protection to the forever stained
siddurim
(prayer books) they hold. Kehillat Bnei Torah Synagogue is a bloodbath.

“No. No. Nonononono,” I whisper, now unable to stop the onslaught of image after horrific image.

It’s the one of the bloodied tefillin-wrapped arm that stops me cold. His lifeless hand is curled around the ends of his tefillin, and his tallit is blemished with the hatred of others. Whose arm is it?

Even as I desparately wonder and wish I knew, I see another arm before me. Also wrapped in tefillin. Also in Jerusalem. My son’s. The morning of his bar mitzvah this past summer. In the middle of a war.

He stood at a table in the bright summer sunlight, the only shade that of the shadow of the holy
Kotel
(Western Wall) before him. Slowly, deliberately, he wrapped his new tefillin around his young arm, curled them around his still-growing hand. He flexed his fingers awkwardly as he tried to find a comfortable way to prevent the leather straps from unfurling.

With his pristine tallit swaying from his shoulders, he grabbed a siddur–they are on every surface at the Kotel–and prayed the morning service. And then he read from the Torah. We yelled Mazel Tov, and sang, and clapped. A day of celebration. And prayer.

I bring these two eerily similar images side by side. One so horrifying. So quiet. Colorless except for the black of the tefillin and the deep red stains. The other filled with light and life. With joy. And hope.

It’s difficult to see. The two images together. Chilling. The hairs on my arms stand straight up. My son, with his whole life ahead of him on the one side. And whose son, whose life cut senselessly short, on the other?

I don’t know whose arm it is. Maybe I never will. But these two images are a powerful juxtaposition of death and life. Of horror and hope.

Yesterday was one of deep despair, of paralyzing fear, of anger and outrage. Like all the hundreds of days of attacks that have passed before. And like all the many that are sure to come. Will it ever end? It feels impossible to imagine.

And yet, we must! We are a people of faith. The song of our nation, of our people, is called “Hatikvah,” The Hope.

The images are horrible, difficult to see, all of them. But this is the one that sticks with me. Because when I look at it, I see my son’s youthful arm similarly swathed in tefillin in that same beloved and holy city. Jerusalem.

Please. Let us not forget the Hope.

Rabbi Aryeh Kupinsky, Rabbi Avraham Shmuel Goldberg, Rabbi Calman Levine, Rabbi Moshe Twersky, police officer Zidan Saif. Baruch dayan haemet. May their memory be a blessing.


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